How do you respond when you feel emotionally vulnerable with someone? Well trust and vulnerability go hand in hand, so if I already struggle with trust, you can imagine how I do with vulnerability. It has taken me a very long time to see the strength in it, and yes it’s something I want to… Continue reading Sigh. Let’s Get Mushy
Question 5
How has faith shaped your healing? Healing. That million dollar word. It’s funny, because the December after mum died, I got baptised. When I look back now, I think it was the first in a long list of things I’ve done to fill the void, because I don’t actually think I was ready. I told… Continue reading Question 5
Question 4
How has loss shaped your identity? Lol. Where do I even start? Put simply, it's been 21 years and I'm still living in survival mode. 21 years and I'd say for the most part, I've been existing rather than living. 21 years and that little 7 year old girl is still trying to heal. Losing… Continue reading Question 4
Question 3
How did your family handle grief and what support did you have or need? I don’t know, but we probably didn’t handle it well. My grandad died the following year. I think it was after that, that I found out my grandma had died when dad was 12, or around that age, leading to him… Continue reading Question 3
Question 2
How do you understand what happened at the time? How could I not? That year was not normal, a year I will never be able to forget. Finding out she’d passed almost didn’t even shock me. The right question? When did I accept what had happened? Because I don’t think I actually really grieved. Mum… Continue reading Question 2